Back in the saddle again.

Nothing exciting in the past few days. Hooked up with the crew for some movie viewing yesterday. Basic was pretty good, twists and turns abound. Just Married on the other hand.. well, sucked :)

I need to get myself out of the habit of coming home drunk and posting to my blog, nothing good every comes of it. Meh. I'm on a short break and just wanted to slap something on here since my net access at my desk is gone again. Later.

A year in the life.

** Warning, Emotional Bullshit Ahead. **

As of today, I have been at my place of employment for 1 year. At first I thought, no big deal. Then I begin to think of all the things that could happen in a year, what a short time it seems, til you add up events in your life. I also thought of where I was a year ago, how my life was, and how it is now. I wondered where I would be right now, had I known the love of my life was silently already done with me. Would I be alone as I am now? Would I be living where I do now? Would I have the same job as I do now, assuming I live here still? Would I be able to tear the image of her from my heart and mind yet? I guess those are questions I will only have answers for in another year. Time seems to move so slowly when you need it to help you move along with your life. Perhaps I am too eager for life to go forward, and I am expecting too much in such little time. I guess it seems all so unfair when she is able to throw all of her love into another so quickly. Perhaps for some, feelings and love mean far different things that it does for others. Sure, I say I am ready to move on with my life, but there is always a very heavy anchor, and that is my heart. I am really, really sick and tired of having this weight on my soul and mind, and I would do just about anything to have it lifted away. My thoughts spilling out all over this blog, even as I say I won't carry on yapping about her, but once again Newcastle has other plans for my wandering mind. I think it is time to drag my ass to bed, and hopefully find some peace in my slumber. Goodnight.

Rollercoaster.

I think that one word pretty much sums up how things have been lately. Of course, I am just a wacko, and all of it is in my head. Some days things are great, I feel really positive both physcially and emotionally. Others I feel quite the opposite, which is common for most people, but nonetheless I would rather not be so.

It seems for now my internet works all the time at my new desk, but seeing as the upstairs crew here at Charter is treated like little kids, I have to keep my internet activities hidden.

Yesterday was a complete waste of a day, and I loved it. I dropped off some stuff that didn't belong to me anymore, went down to the comic shop and played some cards, and then went home for the rest of the day. Between hours of gaming and watching movies with my cats, it was a very relaxing day. I've had this complex lately where I always have to be somewhere, doing something. Either out with friends, exercising, strolling through stores, driving around aimlessly or anything else to keep myself busy. I feel sometimes that if I stop I will sink, and I don't wish to do that. Guess it is my turn to feel what other people have been going through for a long time.

Rumor has it I may not be moving now, and instead have a roomate move in with me. That's pretty cool considering how large and nice my apartment is, regardless of it's shitty location. This is cool for two reason, one it will relieve any stress from moving to a new location(I'm weird like that.), and it will also allow me to save up some money for awhile, so if I decide to go and do something wild and crazy, i'll have the funds to do so.

Yes Branden, you missed a pretty good time Friday night :)

Time to get back to helping grandma and grandpa figure out how to work their vcr and cable box, later.

Sneaky.

Just got moved to a new desk, so it seems for a extremely brief amount of time(read: 30 minutes or so) my internet is working, so figured I may as well update while I should be working.

Haven't really done anything exciting in the past week, looked at a few places with Karl and Branden, hopefully will look at a few more in the next couple days. Saw Daredevil for the first time last night on Ben's phat t.v. I liked it, thought it was very well done, and Jennifer Garner is always easy on the eyes. 2-day NEWLARP event is slowly creeping up on me, I'm kinda excited. The game has alot of things not going well with it, but it is still nice to get out for some fresh air and beat on some friends with foam swords. Got the sub and amp installed in the car, but I got the wrong amp, so it's only about 1/3-1/2 of what it could be doing, which is actually fine. I wanted some decent sounding music for myself, not for the neighborhood :) Work is annoying, I have moved to a different desk 3 times in the past month, after only moving once before in the past 11 months. It's still a cake job and a nice atmosphere, so I can't complain too much. Well, I'm gonna finish this up before someone notices what i'm doing. Tata.

Busy, busy.

It's very late, and I have to work in the morning, so just the highlights, if you can call them that.

Guy backed into my car with his truck at Leons. Got my stereo installed, and new rear speakers. May have amp and subwoofer installed Tuesday. Worked most of the week. Went to the Fond du Lac County Fair Friday night and saw Heart. Visited Josh in Madtown and went to see Pirates of the blah blah blah. Very good movie. Mr. Depp still rules. Branden is now the owner of my old car. Need to get off my butt and find a place for Branden, Karl and I to move into. Sleepy.

I'm a slacker.

Been awhile, anything new? Got myself a newer car last week, needed something that is gonna be more reliable for all the highway driving I do, and a bit better on gas mileage. I'm very happy with the new car, it's alot of adjusting from going from a automatic to a manual, but I'm getting more used to it each day. Hopefully on Tuesday I will be transfering my stereo over, and possibly getting some sort of subwoofer and amp.

Saturday was FVbN, and it was alot of fun. I survived another night in the treacherous domain of the Fox Valley, but quite a few other people didn't. I think last count I got somewhere between 4-6 characters died. I was only responsible for 2 of those :)

I guess the guestbook isn't that popular with the readers around here. Been up for a week and a half and only Branden loves me! Not many people I personally know use the guestbooks, so just not a big thing here I guess. Beyond that, work and hanging out, that's about all I amounted to last week. Adios!

Look over there!

A guestbook added to my site. Go sign it you humps! :)

Lots of new stuff, I'll post on it later.

So very tired.

Today someone needed me to switch shifts with them at work. Which involved me working 3.5 hours earlier than usual, and then still going out for the usual on Mondays to PCP. And here I am at 3:45am updating my blog, good thing I have tomorrow off! :)

Since last update, hmm.. let's see. Saturday was the Ren Faire in Bristol. I thought it was a really good time, with alot to see, and some very entertaining shows. I had to be very careful as to not buy very expensive things that I dearly wanted there. Everything from new costuming, armor, weapons, et.. that place can get you into some trouble very quickly :) Afterwards some of us went to China King for some Mongolian BBQ, yum yum.

Sunday sucked major monkey balls. We got our asses kicked at work all day long, and even had a torando warning, which isn't too bad since we have to go to a meeting room and just chill til it's over. It sucks when your sitting there wondering if your going to die in the next 10 minutes, and then look across the room and see your ex sitting there. So many things you want to say, to get off your chest incase this is the last chance you'll have. But then when the weather clears up, and the warning is over, you are so glad you didn't make a fool out of yourself by doing so. Ugh.

Going down to Madison later today with Beefy and possibly Zeb to visit Moondog. I haven't been down to Madison in a very long time, and besides the Ren fair, I haven't been out of the Valley in sometime either. It'll be a nice road trip.

I think I'm gonna go drag myself into bed and get some shut eye, have a nice day.

Happy Birthday U.S.A.!

Today is a day to celebrate, and reflect. With so many things wrong with the world today, I truely believe there is far more good than bad about living in this country. So many freedoms we take for granted on a daily basis, we truely do have much to be thankful for.

Also today is a day for recovering from last nights drinking binge and then hanging out with friends! :) Last night I cooked dinner for my friends Chris and Nicole, which was a pretty good time. They are a great couple, and have basically taken me in and treated me like family. You should never take your friends lightly, because you never know when someone is going to need to lean on you during rough times of their life. Afterwards some drinking and dancing in a few spots in Fondy, then I was off to a blissful drunken slumber.

Today I got to enjoy some LAN goodness with Barren, Beefy and Moondog. There are some games that I really enjoy playing, but usually only when i'm playing on a lan.

Ren Faire is tomorrow, bright and early tomorrow. It should be a blast, Barren and I are going in costume. The hardest part about tomorrow is me resisting spending my car money :)

Well, seeing as we're suppose to be out of town in 7 hours for a very long day, I shall retire to bed. Good night America!

P.S. If the guy had any style, he wouldn't say, "Can I buy you breakfast?" Instead he would say, "Can I make you breakfast?" But then again, what do I know? :)

Tired.

Begin massive run-on paragraph. It seems that no matter how late I get home and go to bed Monday nights, I still wake up early on Tuesdays. Had to cancel my current car insurance and go with another provider today. I was able to save quite a bit of money, but I really liked my old insurance agent. Very friendly and personable, goes the extra mile for you for things your not even insured on, but the rates were just too high compared to others. My new agent is also her agent, so of course I got the usual twenty questions I get from anyone who knew us as a couple. I get nothing but very upbeat comments from everyone, so it helps a bit to put light on an otherwise dark time. Went to some Pizza joint in downtown Appleton tonight with Barren and Zeb, and it was pretty tastey. Afterwards we were joined by Beefy and Abraxis and attended the 10:30 showing of T3:Rise of the Machines. The movie was pretty good, but not awesome, I guess is how I could put it. The movie grew on me a little more during the second half when the plot started kicking in. Other than that today, played some cards at the comic shop and didn't get much done that can be considered productive. Oh, rumor is there's gonna be a crew going to the Ren Faire this Saturday, that should be a blast! Still waiting to hear from the peeps on if we're getting a place together or not, if so when, and what's going on til then *shrug*. I gotta go exercise before work tomorrow, so I should be asleep already, g'night.