I am so blind.


"What about us?"

"There is no us."

Only in your worst dreams..
It's strangely reassuring how the weird freaky shit you only dream about in your nightmares, can and does happen to you. When friendships mean so little, anarchy does indeed need to prevail. The masks people wear are so thin, yet so hard to penetrate. All I can say to my deepest love is, "How could you lie straight into my eyes? Am I truely the demon you hate? Do I deserve the anguish that I would only expect from my greatest enemy? I would never do to you, what you can so easily spit in my face!"

I basically got my nerves going so bad that I went home early from work. Atleast now I know that I had the right to be sick.

Everything seems so clear now.

Work, work, work and work. I don't exactly keep up on many other cable companies, but I find it highly unlikely that they have nearly as many outages as Charter does. This past Friday around 1:40ish pm there was a garage fire in Fond du Lac that melted a major fiber optic line, which of course fed tv and internet signal to most of Ripon, Fond du Lac and the surrounding areas. And yes, I swear every single person from said cities not only called, and listened to the opening message but of course had to continue on through to scream, moan and bitch. Yeah, we can predict when some kids are gonna light up someone's garage and burn down our cable lines, really. Meh.

After a few moments of clearer thought I have decided to delete my three paragraph bitch post about someone very close in my life. Which is originally what my title was based on.

Ok that put me in quite a foul mood, I should chill before ending my lunch and going back to work, tata.

Does everything have to break?

Well, apparently that stupid test is stuck on my blog, as it doesn't even exist for me to delete :( **Update, posting on here took away the broken test! w00t!**

My birthday has come and gone. Went out with some friends and co-workers, had way too much to drink and had a great time.

FVbN was also this weekend, had an excellent time. Didn't die, and didn't kill anyone, so the karma works out.

I have decided that if I can continue to play games on my computer, I MUST upgrade my ram. Using a buddies copy of C&C:Generals, and it chops up once in awhile, same as Unreal Tournament 2k3. I suppose it's not like ram is expensive right now, just gotta actually get it.

As you can see, my topics are short, as I'm one tired mofo. Actually, that's all you get, gnight!

Doesn't seem bad.





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Yeah, life pretty much tastes like dirt.

Unless for some amazing reason you read my site and not Kahlora's, we are no longer an item. There's plenty of good, and plenty of bad. Living with someone for 6 years defintly has an effect on you, I don't care if they are a friend, roomate gf/bf or whatever. I think it's even a more profound effect when you randomly check said persons blog and you see some shit like "Do I want a new boyfriend or not?" Considering how recently this has taken place, and the fact that we still live together it hit harder than it should have. Whatever, fuck this fuck that fuck everything in a hat. Time to move on and all that other shit.

Work has actually been pretty awesome lately. Been going out drinking, bowling and hanging out with some people from work. The whole going out thing is something I never was into during my early 20's, which again isn't that bad of a thing. It can be a pretty good time depending on the atmosphere and the people you are with.

My car took a shit and it's stuck in the bunghole. Went looking at cars last week, and while I was at a dealership, I noticed I had a bad leak under my car. Took at look at it, sure enough steady driping gas leak. Turns out to be a steel line that has to be cut and replaced, involes moving the gas tank and all sorts of shit. I refuse to put another dime in this bitch. Now I just need to find a new car I can afford. Of course what I can afford and what I can get a loan for are two different things. "Yes Mr. Sir, we realize you have x amount of money for payments which is more than adiquate, but your credit licks donkey balls, we must deny you." Thanks prick.

Whoo, i'm all full of positive energy tonight... And to top it off, I'm a .....


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